30 Days in permanent shackles (1st November 2018 – 1 December 2018) “live” log:-
8th November 2018
Day 8 of ??, Ive really for the most of the day forgotten I am wearing shackles, they have become part of me. Despondency only comes about when you really would like to go out for lunch or suchlike. But overall coping quite well.
Over dinner we again chatted a bit about 2019, it looks like I will be going to prison again (punishment for yesterday I guess) but for 6 days towards the end of January. I protested immediately saying the 2 days earlier this year were absolutely hell, my wife replied that this would be very different. The 2 days were level 1, because I am a returning prisoner I will be admitted to level 2 and possibly a day in level 3 if level 2 is successful. I don’t have any details as to what these levels mean but I do remember that the 2 days were level 1 admission. If I find out anymore details I will post them on here.
Still awaiting my wife’s draft contract for 2019, but I am sure it will be something extreme. I don’t want to ask too often about it, as I will be in some way punished, I have already been given a warning for asking.
7th November 2018
Day 7 of ??, today was a bad day. Due the fact that its now Autumn and the leaves are falling accelerated by the recent high winds and heavy rain, our roof guttering was overflowing as the leaves and debris was causing a blockage near the down pipe, this required clearing. Still shackled I had to take care of it, as best possible I covered the shackles and chain with cloths so as not to be seen and took to the ladder with a bucket in one hand to clear the blockage. All went well albeit a bit precarious climbing the ladder and I remained safe, however in the high winds most of the cloths came off exposing the shiny connecting chain between the shackles while I was up the ladder, as I was coming down the ladder the noise from the chains hitting each rung was pretty loud. I don’t think anyone saw me.
As regards to wearing the shackles it’s been a week now, I think I have broken through all the initial barriers and concerns of being permanently shackled and now fully accept my situation.
5th November 2018
Day 5 of 30 ish, my wife reminded me that I wanted to follow you while you are shackled and now you are more permanently shackled my wife is getting some ideas together and thinks 30 days may be a bit too short. Well I don’t have any tools to use to escape after the agreed 30 days so it’s entirely in her hands.
Things have settled down and I’ve accepted the shackles are a part of me all day everyday and for the most of the time forgetting they are there.
So nothing really to report, her 2019 contract is still a guarded secret and I have been asked to stop pestering her about it (I don’t want any sort of punishment).
3rd November 2018
Day 3, a little sore, but no more than before. Getting used to them much quicker than before too, however it was just as daunting putting the rivets in as the last time as I know this was truly permanent once again
2nd November 2018
Yes as planned the new drill was delivered around midday on the 2nd, I know she was due home around 4:30pm so I waited until 3:30 to fit the permanent shackles. All went smoothly and they were on for good (well at least until December 1st). So after clearing up and putting the drill back in its case my wife arrived home to inspect the shackles, she was very happy and dropped the key on the floor, grabbed the drill and left the house she said she was just popping into her parents.
I was so glad to have the key and removed one set. Well it’s a day later than planned due to the drill breaking but I did not have my freedom so I guess I can count all of the days so far.
My wife was back again after about 30 minutes without the drill and we prepared dinner together, while eating we talked about why she has suddenly turned strict on me, when before she was not so supportive, well her reason was that she didn’t want to break the contract and have to be shackled herself.
I tried to engage about next year, however this didn’t go down like I thought as she said “don’t worry about next year I am going to be working on your contract myself”, this have given me some concern as she kept the offer from the prison and that may be a part (I hope not). What have I started?
1st November 2018
My freedom has come to the end….
My wife locked me in the leg irons at 6:30am and expected me to be in the permanent leg shackles when she returned from work. However I was not for a good reason, the drill I used for fitting the rivets has broken. She thought this was just an excuse but soon found out for herself it just was not working so that’s now out with the rubbish.
I have since found a new drill online and available from a local store, my wife will pick it up tomorrow morning and bring it back in her lunch break for me to fit the shackles, meanwhile I am still in the locked leg irons until at least tomorrow 4:30pm after her work and I am expected to have the permanent shackles in place. But as punishment, I have to sleep handcuffed as well tonight as she thinks I may have broken the drill intentionally.
My wife despite being reluctant with my plans to be permanently shackled, since the trip to the prison she has become very much more strict and gone from objecting to the idea of me being shackled to enjoying me being shackled, restrained or imprisoned and having a lot of control, she has even kept the letter from the prison which I wanted to discard containing the offer for 1 month’s prison for 1,000 Euros. I am not sure if this is a cunning plan to persuade me to be permanently shackled or to discourage me from it, I can’t work it out.
31st October 2018
Today is my last day of freedom for 30 days, my wife is going to work early tomorrow so will use the high security leg irons on me first thing tomorrow morning and take the key to work with her. By the time she get home I am expected to have the leg shackles riveted on, the others will then be removed. Double shackled for a short time, very heavy on my ankles indeed.
Prison visit / admission during our holiday (18th October 2018 – 20th October 2018) log:-
It was our intention to visit this prison during our holiday to see what they could offer, little did I think i would end up admitted for 2 days of solitary confinement.
The prison has 20 cells, each cell is 9ft by 8ft has two single beds, sink and toilet. The price is 100 Euros for each 24 hours, however this is reduced to 80 Euros if you have your own prison outfit and handcuffs.
There is a shop in the reception area of the prison which sells all sorts of prison kit, looking around it clearly is for any gender, gay or whatever you want to do while incarcerated. If you spend over 300 Euros in the shop you can have a voucher for 100 Euros against a prison stay. I wanted to give it a go but didn’t say anything to my wife until she said to me “why don’t you give it a try for a night” well it was going to happen from that point. But I wanted to be permanently shackled during this stay so we looked around the shop. We came across some leg irons which did not have a generic key, in fact the keys are one offs as there were a high security shackles (in the basket with them). Next was handcuffs (mandatory in this prison to be used when leaving the cell) really chunky pair by super comfortable (in the basket with them). Getting closer to the 300 Euros, now the outfit. A two piece prison outfit, with side zips on the legs, perfect when wearing shackles to get on and off easy. So two sets of them as this will be great for home too, also they sell underwear boxers with press studs on each side, again a brilliant idea if shackled (10 of them in the basket). That’s it 360 Euros and a free 100 Euro prison voucher.
The prison had 6 cells in use already leaving plenty of free space, admission is 7-7:30pm everyday and release 6- 6:30pm. Breakfast is 7-8am, lunch is 12-1pm and dinner is 5-6pm. After a short discussion with my wife, I booked 2 days starting today for 60 Euros + the voucher.
It was agreed once I have been dressed and admitted I would be shackled and the keys handed to by wife to take away so they could not be removed until her return 2 days later. The handcuffs will be left with the guard for use.
We headed back to our hotel after agreeing my admission time as 7pm, I was getting a little jittery about what is going to happen, time was moving along fast as I tried on the cloths and prepared what I had to take in with me and grab something to eat.
We arrived in the car park at 6:55pm, my heart was beating hard I was scared more than ever before, at exactly 7pm I was asked to step out of the car my handcuffs were handed to the guard who promptly used them on me with my hand behind my back and led into the prison reception followed by my wife with my cloths. I was un-cuffed and led into a changing room and presented my prison cloths and told to change and put everything I take off into a basket. Once done I came out and was handcuffed immediately in front, my leg shackles were fitted double locked and the key presented to my wife who was led away back to the car, I was now extremely scared. I was then searched before being led bare foot into the main prison. It was so quiet all I could hear was my chains rattling as we headed to a cell, as we entered the cell my handcuffs were removed and I was soon in there alone as the door locked closed, 2 beds, soap, toothbrush, toothpaste, towels, 6 bottles of water, toilet and sink.
It was surprisingly clean, warm, very quiet and small, with a small window with obscured glass and bars 10ft up on the wall so no chance of looking out. As this cell is made of 4 walls and a door there is no chance of seeing others in this prison (during my entire stay I did not see anyone else in the prison). It is so silent and lonely very strange; light went out so I guessed that the time was about 8pm as I think I had only been in there about ½ hour.
With the lights out seeing anything was almost impossible even after my eyes adjusted all I could see is edges, it is just a total absence of light so I made my way into the bed and got comfortable the only sound was a jingle from my chains which seemed much louder and echoed in the cell.
Lights came on, I guess it must be morning. Breakfast was delivered and was pretty good, soon after finishing, a guard came in handcuffed me and led me to another room where there was a shower, in that room was a disposable razor soap towels, handcuffs were removed, I was told I had 20 minutes and the door was bolted shut. Well I just finished and the door opened, handcuffs on another guard checked the room and equipment. I was led back to the cell handcuffs removed and door locked. This is so strange in a cell, silence and the unknowing what would happen next as it’s totally up to the guards. After what seemed an age of thinking and boredom all in one my lunch arrived, this too was very good. About ½ hour later the door opened I was handcuffed once again behind my back and led to an outside cage and locked in it, the views were of just fields and trees, could not see any people or houses at all. Well that was short lived and led back to my cell again and one hand was freed but the handcuffs were attached to the bed frame so all I can do is to lie down and think about my predicament, the leg shackles were a little sore so I tried to shuffle around to move them up from my ankles. I must have fallen asleep as the next thing to arrive was another meal well at least I know its somewhere around 5-6pm I was un-cuffed and they were removed from the bed the door was again shut for me to have my meal. After 1 hour my tray was collected and the door was locked. I Washed up and changed my underwear and basically went to bed. This was repeated again on day two but knew that after the late meal I would be released. My release happened at 6:15pm where I met my wife at the reception area and had my ankle shackles removed, I was then able to go back into my comfortable cloths again.
In summary
2 days was probably not enough to fully appreciate what prison is like, however it is very lonely and keeping sane would be a challenge to break through if it was long term. Boredom and silence is a problem, all you can hear is your chains when you move and your own heartbeat.
Well I got some really useful functional cloths, shackles and handcuffs as a souvenir and just before I left the prison I was passed an envelope inviting me back for 1 month for 1,000 Euros, that’s pretty cheap but I think this is not for me.
Well while I was locked up my wife had a shopping spree and we had to get a bigger suitcase to return with… perhaps I need to teach her a lesson and lock her in shackles for spending a fortune!, but in all fairness it was no more than what I spent getting the prison experience.
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20 Days in permanent shackles (17th September 2018 – 7th October 2018) log:-
7th October 2018
Day 20, I have survived the extra 2 days…. Spent yesterday looking at the drill and 5mm bit, this was torture resisting drilling the rivets out.
I am free, drilled out the rivets and the shackles fell away from my ankles, it feels so strange, I had got used to having the weights around my ankles, the reduced stride and now it’s gone. In fact is not easy to get used to freedom at all, it seems I am missing them.
I bolted the other shackles on my wife so she could experience what they were like, while then I was drilling mine off. She only lasted 20 minutes before protesting and they had to come off. This was a good thing as now I know because of our contract I will serve the full time as the consequences for her wouldn’t be very nice!
Back in them again in 25 days for another 30 days shackled.
5th October 2018
Day 18, release day! I have my tools at hand, however I am determined despite the opportunity to release myself to go on until Sunday (20 days). My ankles are a little sore but not unbearable. I know if I can make the 20 days then being shackled for 30 days (November) will be easier.
2nd October 2018
Day 15, been pretty uncomfortable for the last 3 days, my wife won’t allow me to use protection for my ankles and taken the pads away. A little swelling and a few bruises but still coping (I think she wants me to release myself on Friday and not to go on until Sunday), I will last to Sunday regardless, I am still determined to achieve 20 days.
28th September 2018
It’s Friday and I am now 11 day in shackles…
All has been good just lately, no real problems apart from the restrictions having both legs tethered together, my wife is surprised that I have lasted so well, in fact I don’t need to be released until Sunday 7th October that would make it 20 days. My wife will bring the tools back on Friday 5th to enable me to release myself however I am going to try to resist the temptation and do the extra 2 days to make it 20 days.
So far it’s been quite an experience (as you can see by below), but now I think I will miss them when they come off. Looking forward now to November being shackled for 30 days even before completing this relatively short challenge.
25th September 2018
8 days in….
The last 2 days have been much better, I have accepted now that I am shackled for the agreed duration, I have taken my mind off of wearing them and things seem to my much better albeit a bit challenging at time’s (changing cloths and showering for instance). Bruising seems to have all but vanished and I seem to have become hardened to them.
I’d challenge anyone who would think this is easy, it certainly is not. However I am convinced I am through the worst now. Looking forward to my release in 10 days time for a holiday and being back in them for the Month of November to complete the contract for this year.
The shackles I ordered for my wife arrived today, when she saw them she shivered and said “you will never have the opportunity or reason to put me in them”, well that’s confirmed my fate and they are in plain view in our bedroom as a gentle reminder.
2019 will be the ultimate challenge and I am kind of looking forward to this.
24th September 2018
Another update…
5 days so far and the last 3 days have been hell!
I have been very despondent and realizing all the things I used to do I can’t, I am a prisoner in my house unable to go out. I can’t imagine what it must be like as a slave or in a Thai prison where there is no end in sight. Maybe this is early days and I am just not used to being shackled like this.
I’ve suffered cramp in my leg, several bruises and broken sleep / nightmares.
I can’t help looking and fiddling with them in the hope they will just come apart, no such luck and no tools either.
I am hoping that this despondency will pass over time or very soon as I have to go again for the month of November and 2019 for at least 3 months.
18th September 2018
Just an update,
First day, the night in bed was so difficult and uncomfortable but manageable. This morning when I checked my ankles there was no real problems where the shackles are resting however I found that my ankle protectors doubled up were what I believe was causing the discomfort due to being quite tight and probably restricting circulation. I have a new solution, I am trying at the moment using thick ski socks with the foot part cut off, rolled below each shackle keeping them off my ankles but allowing them to twist really freely, also using a dog lead to keep the chain from dragging, I found walking is much easier with this solution.
Today I have had a bit of free time, wife was out working and realized what I have done looking down at the shiny metal chain and rings around my legs brought home my predicament. I had a good inspection and tug at them hoping the riveting was somehow flawed and they would come apart, but no movement at all. I am here for the duration I am now sure there is no way to get them off without my tools. I am hoping that this is the first and worst day over.
Time to cook the dinner now!
17th September 2018
I’m here now shackled looking at my E-Mail
I was not thinking and probably too eager when fitting them and after riveting the first one on my left leg, I realized I still had my jeans on, fortunately off they came before completing the fitting on my right leg.
Tools are now 8 miles away therefore absolutely no way to get out by myself now. So the time has begun, been in them for 5 hours so far and all is well, using ankle pads top and bottom to keep them up higher on my leg so they are not resting on my ankles to gently get used to them. Currently I have been walking around to get used to the fact now I have to walk slower and take shorter steps once again, while trying to avoid pulling the chain too uncomfortably tight.
I don’t think I’m going to forget they are there too soon, as they are quite heavy, noisy and restrictive.
My wife is fully supportive of my challenge albeit for short periods this year, will she resist my pleas to be set free? – Yes as the consequences for breach are not so good for her! I am still waiting for her shackles to be delivered, just a gentle reminder her of the commitment agreed when sees them hanging in wait in our bedroom. At the moment I don’t foresee any issues, but this is very early in this challenge.
In October, our vacation will involve also looking at a prison which seems to have a lot to offer for short to medium term experiences being shackled and incarcerated.
15th September 2018
Contract is all agreed and signed,
I will be shackled permanently from Monday September 17th to Friday October 5th and then November 1st to December 1st.
My wife has agreed to take the tool box with the drill, bits and other tools that could break them open to her parents for a safe out of the way storage after they are fitted.
She has agreed to keep me shackled for the whole time and any failure to do so, would result under the contract in her becoming shackled using rivets for up to 2 weeks for each infringement, this has been reluctantly agreed and is clear in the joint contract.
She has also agreed, when her shackles arrive try them using the hex bolts to secure them for as long as she wishes or can take. This is to feel what she would be in for in the event of the contract becoming broken. She knows how heavy mine are and the slightly smaller ones will not be that much different. I know that just wearing them for a short time would discourage her from allowing me to be released regardless of my requests.
I am currently enjoying my last hours of freedom and after just managing 4 days last time, 18 days is going to be the first challenge before 30 days then a new contract for 2019, 3 Months + ?.
10th September 2018
We are currently putting together a joint written agreement for me to be locked permanently for 2 periods of time..
1. September 17 until our holiday in October.
2. November 1st until December 1st
3. 2019 to be decided.
This written agreement will be strict, all tools capable of facilitating release will be kept with her parents. On top of that if she assists with my release earlier than the contract (unless for an emergency) she will agree to be shackled permanently for up to 2 weeks (I’ve ordered a smaller size already).
Now she is aware of the consequences, I think I will achieve the terms as I’m sure when she See’s the shackles waiting for her hanging in our bedroom she will be strict.
3rd September 2018
Having easy access to the tools to remove my shackles was probably the reason for removing them, looking back they were accepted and comfortable to live with. Perhaps I can be forgiven for this as this is my first attempt at permanent fixing.
I do intend to try again for a good bit longer and thinking of a method of achieving this.
1. Take away the only tool to remove them, perhaps my metal drill bits.
2. Get a time lock safe and put the drill bits inside.
I prefer idea 2 as this does ensure release. However option 1 makes things just that bit more uncertain.
My wife will support me (as she likes me in the shackles) in my next permanent try, but it runs the risk of premature persuading her to get drill bits and facilitate my escape or will she be strong and assertive (I hope so).
20th August 2018
I’ve had a go at being permanently shackled but couldn’t last more than 4 days, by riveting with steel rivets. The very feeling when applying each rivet brings home the reality of being permanently stuck, about 10 minutes after applying panic set in… What happens if there’s an emergency situation! It’ll take some time to tool up to remove them.
However after the second day I became pretty used to them and felt I could go on for some time like this as they soon became comfortable and almost forgotten about once I learned to take smaller strides to walk around and protect my ankles.
Maybe I’ll give it a go again as I’m reminded constantly because they are in plain view hanging from the wall in my bedroom screaming to be used.
Why am I doing this….
Our inspiration to try this came from “Shackled Bare Feet” the intention is to give support for his venture.
https://shackledbarefeet.wordpress.com/
You would never know what it’s really like to be permanently shackled until you actually experience it yourself, there are a number of barriers to break through.
- The fear of this being permanent
- The panic stage
- Loss of freedom, not being able to do what you used to do freely
- The pain barrier, weight and restriction they cause
- Everyday tasks are more difficult, showering, changing and generally moving around
- Sleeping, bad dreams and discomfort
Once you get over and through the above barriers and accept the situation things seem to become much more normal and at times you forget you are in shackles.
Shackled in Steel 